Wow today was really crappy lol. Well it started out good, but then i found out that we had joseph. Of course it wasn't a short practice, it lasted all the way till five. I also realized that our cabaret show is next weekend and we barley have anything done. No staging no nothing. Kinda scared thats not gonna pull through. I was sick at the beginning of 2nd hour and 4th so that was a bummer. We got new seats in German, they are okay, I'm by people I'm not good friends w/ so thats a bummer. After school Joseph seemed like forever. After Joseph I went and taught baton, that was blah. I was so tired and other people were complaining and I told them not to b/c i hadn't been home at all and they were like well maybe you shouldn't do joseph and stuff b/c ur so busy. And of course this person missed a practice and competition b/c of work b4 and i said well maybe you shouldn't have a job. It all started also b/c I have a baton competition the day of cabaret in which we have rehersals all day but of course i just can't not go i get sucked into gonig when whenever anyone else doesn't go its okay. But yea Rachael and Katie left early and I asked Sue if I could leave early like a half-hour b4i wanted to leave and she said maybe but then when the time came around she really wanted me to stay and teach these really hyperactive girls who wouldn't calm down. it sucked. then i wanted to go practice at the gym afterwards and i couldn't b/c there was a game! argh. so mad. sooo i came home ate dinner and finished my homework.
Well i haven't been myself lately for several reasons but now I'm not gonna let it bother me anymore. I have to just be cool and positive or else all these joseph practices and baton practices are gonna seem horrible b/c i keep insisting i look at things negativly. This should be fun. Please pray for me.

Les

Well lately things have been going ehhhh. Thing aren't wonderful but then they are horrible. I ended up doing perty decently on all of my exams, I got all A's in my classes but English, I got an 88% in that class, so close. But yes Joseph hasn't been too bad, feels like were really behind but I think were gonna get it together soon. At night lately I've been going to the gym to practice, on Wednesday and Thursday I went and practice at 800ish till 845ish. I like practicing by myself, I don't have to worry about ne thing else then. Lately I've been trying so hard to think postivie about everything. Its just so hard to constantly smile when you know that really ur hurting inside ya know? Its' almost like smiling makes it worse. But then again it helps all the sadness go away on the outside b/c then no one know that ur hurting and you can't bring everyone else down w/ u. I don't care how sucky everything is, I gotta be positive and help others be positive. I wish I didn't think this way lol. Oh well life is all full of struggles and battles, being able to overcome them is the fun part about life.

Lesley

btw i don't like joseph.

things have been kinda rough the past days but I gotta stay strong. i know that because of this something greater will come, something greater than what we were wanting to begin with. God doesn't put you through pain for the fun of it he does it for a reason. sure its hard to get through now but God prepares you for something that will be even harder to get through later on. once you get through all those trials i know were gonna get something so greatand going through all that crap will be worth it. i just can't wait till that one wonderful thing comes. i have to be positive, i need to let God run my life. If there is one thing i've learned it is that you can't plan what you want to happen. it just doesn't work that way. things are unexpected. "when God throws a curveball, dont' duck, you may just miss something."

Lord I just pray that you will help me to be strong and help me to remember why things happen the way they do. I pray that you will help me to just let u take total control of my life, reassure me that everything will work out in the end, Lord I'm trying to right now but sometimes i just get so weak at heart where you need an extra push to make it through and remember why everything is happening the way its happening. Lord thankyou for being so awesome and always so overwhelming with love when i feel like i'm all alone, and when it feels like everythign is upside down, Lord be with us.

So my chances of going to WMU are getting better. I got accepted to go to a scholarship competition there so thats a plus! I just hate taking tests so thats a bummer, but I get atleast get $1200 a year just for showing up to the competition! I like WMU b/c of the no alcohol rule. That really makes me smile. Some ppl may think I'm weird b/c I don't want alcohol at the school, I dont' care though. I can't wait to go to college. I sent my application in to spring arbor just to see if i get in. I have to send in my transcripts still but I don't have a big enough envelope. But I just want to send it in to see.

So it was kinda crazy we didn't have school today. I still have my english exam tomorrow though. Today Twirl Michigan is performing at the UT Basketball game. I have to be there around 630ish. I don't really want to go but you'll have that! On Sunday I may be teachign some baton and having a lesson w/ Candy to get a college audition tape together. Once I get that together I'll really beable to concentrate on what I need to be practicing. My three baton is going awesome!

I got a new CD. His name is Shawn McDonald and he's really good. He's a Christian acoustic kinda poppy sound. I like it. Its crazy because before he found Jesus he was in a lot of trouble. Five years before he had 9 felonys for growing marijuana and tons of other drugs. Its amazing how we can be changed so much by Gods love. Its amazing!

God Bless
Lesley

Well things have been going ehhh. I am so excited to go to college. I am so freakin excited. Things haven't been going to good lately. I don't really feel like myself. Things never go the way I plan. Maybe God is just trying to tell me that I can't plan. I have to live by him; I have to stop planning. Life seems to be getting harder and more frusterating. I want to go to bed and never wake up, or just skip the rest of school and summer and go straight to college. Joseph and baton is really keeping me busy. When I dont' have Joseph afterschool I am practicing baton in the gym. I love twirling in the gym when no one is around b/c I have time to think and just be by myself. I think I"m becoming a more independant person. I used to need to be surrounded by people. I would never do ne thing alone. Now I don't mind doing things alone.

This week is exams. I'm kinda nervous. I need to make sure I study. My english exam is tuesday and I won't get home till 830 on monday so I need to study hardcore then and now. English is the exam I'm most worried about. I dislike english viele.

My brain is so overwhelmed. I have so many different thoughts but I can't seem to write them down.

Ashley, Chelsie, Holly and Krista, I love you guys so much. I know you guys know this but it just felt good to say it, because without you guys I would be lost. You guys mean so much to me.

Love Always,
Lesley

Well Hello! Today has been perty decent. I didn't have any homework so that was a plus. My mom e-mail Mr. Regnier yesterday to see if I could use the gym for baton practice, and he said yes! So that is defiantly a plus. I'll prolly be going after school a lot and in the night time. I went today with hurst around 700ish and there were games ending but I foudn a spot. The custodian was mean but hopefully she'll get nicer. Also b4 I practiced I went to monroe mall to exchange a shirt and while i was there I got my ears pierced a second time! It hurt a bit, but now it doesn't hurt at all! Welp I got to get going. Well Love Ya All!

Lesley

Time for a real post! Well things have been going okay lately. Things aren't terrible but then again they aren't wonderful. I must say though I am excited to go back to school. Joseph is going to be starting up though so its gonna be busy. The holiday season was good. Christmas was awesome, New Years was okay. All I know is that New Years has made me a stronger person which makes me happy. We stayed up till 6 so I am still tired.
I've been trying to find a good blog skin, I changed it once but I did'nt like it to much so I changed it again. This one is simple so i like it. Love you guys, I'm out

Lesley

Happy New Year 2005! Things have been perty decent lately. I'll write more later, I had a mind blank