So yes today was a funfilled day. Got up and forgot things twice so I was kinda late. The day was long, we danced first and second hour kinda, w/ random 10 min breaks which rocked, we were so close to nintendo, lol. What else ummmmmm.... went shopping after school w/ Rachael to find dresses for showcase. I found 2 from JCPenny which I really like! I'm excited to wear them tomorrow! so we were shopping and i didn't get home till 6 and practice started at 6. I was late but thats cool, so practice wasn't too long, there were a lot of bandos tehre b/c of band concerts and such, so we didn't get the choir room :-(. After practice we went to apples bees, chels and i went in our dresses, hehe. Fun Stuff.

So now its 1050 and I need to GET TO BED! Cya Later!

Lesley

I feel so isolated. I don't feel apart of the group. I love soiree so much, I love everyone in it! I just feel as if I don't belong or something. Its like while talking in chat rooms I feel as if no one knows i'm there b/c i dont' feel important, when were practicing things are ok, but i still feel isolated. Maybe its just b/c i'm shy or something, or b/c i'm different? I don't know, I'm so confused. If I feel like this now, how am i gonna feel when we get to florida. Its like after we had out talk I felt so connected so apart of the group, and now I don't. Maybe I'm just stupid. I don't know, but I got to get to bed, Night

Lesley

Wow, the Lord was definatly w/ us today. On the way home from a gig Lindsey, Thomas and I got into an accident. We were turning left onto US 23 and we swurved and hit almost head on into a guard rail. On the other side of the guard rail was a steep hill and a river. When we were getting ready to crash I just thought it was all over. I thought I'd wake up in an emergency room or in Heaven. I was so scared. After we realized that we crashed and realized we were fine Lindsey was sitting there and was just like "O My God, O My God" and I just told Thomas and Lindsey to get out of the car. Lindsey was so shooken up and she thought it was her fault but she has to know that it wasn't, it was just slippery and that it could have happend to anyone! After we were out we found out we were stuck and such we got unstuck and the police showed up and ambulances and everything. No one was hurt at all thankfully! I just want to tell everyone that I love them so much! I don't know what I'd do w/o any of you! I am just thankful that the Lord was with us today and that he held us and kept us safe. Thankyou so much to everyone, I love you.

Lesley

Well I have to say I am relieved. I feel really comfortable w/ soiree now than i ever have before. I was so intimidated by everyone everyday when I'd walk into first hour b/c I didn't feel as if I knew ne one. But now I feel as if I'm connected to everyone b/c were all so much alike and we all have problems we can share to each other. I just want to say somethings to a few ppl: Lindsey Drager, i look up to you, i want to be like you b/c you are the coolest person ever, your so accepting and you really truley made me feel apart of soiree. Kelsey I look up to you so much and I can't wait to get to know you better b/c ur the sweetest person ever! Christin I'm excited for the rest of this year b/c I really want to get to know you, I always was intimidated by you before but now I realize that you are the nicest most caring person ever! Dan Brim wow you rock! what i love about you is that ur so loving, my day could be going horrible and ur there saying "shocker" and "I love you Lesley!". Phil and Liz I don't really know you that well, but i want to, you guys are so awesome and I'm excited to just get to know you better. For everyone else in soiree I love you all and I can't wait to just b/c better friends w/ you all! Things are gonna look up.

Lesley

Well today went decently. School day was fine, just normal, then I get home and some of soiree had a chat/bonding session online in a chat room. It was really nice b/c we got all the probs we've been having out. I'm sure spring break is gonna be fine!The only thing that I'm worried about personally is just not forming cliques/groups. I really hope all of us can just be together w/o being in groups. I know I don't have a particular group really and I'm scared b/c I don't want to be left behind. I'm not as talkative as everyone else and I'm scared that thats gonna hurt me in florida. I just pray that everyone is gonna get along. After tomorrow hopefully everything is gonna be settled!

Well today after the chat I went running. I ran farther than usual so thats good! Now I'm getting ready to go swimming w/ Rachael @ Mason. That shoudl be exciting, more exerscise! I'm just scared to get in the old bathing suit, lol. Welp Anywyaz tomorrow I have 3 tests and a power point presentatoin! eeek. Hopefully afterswimming I can come and prepare! Cya Later!

Lesley

So today was a decent day. I have been in a really good mood all day! So did nothing but dance for the first two hours, woot woot, that was exciting! I really like the shining star dance, Christin's choreography is wonderful! But anywayz for lunch I had a bagel and then during hmr i worked on english. Afterschool I took alyssa home, then went home, then came back to the school to work on our song for showcase. Then I came home and ran! Exciting! After that I went to baton and worked some more. Now I"m home and my mother and I went to the grocery store b/c i wanted some veggies and fruits, so we did that. And for dinner I had a lil piece of meat and a lil bit of veggies. So I'm doing perty good on my dietish thing. Hopefully I lose weight by florida, that would be greatly appreciated! Welp anywayz I'm out!

lesley

Ok So I'm in the kitchen and I grab 4 jelly beans..... my mom says what are you doing?? you don't need to be eating that! Let me remind you I've had half a bagel, an apple, and like 10 jelly beans all day.I told her "well maybe you shouldn't put them out in the open" she replies w/ "don't get an attitude w/ me" ok so here I am going anerexic (not really just eating less and eating only when I'm super hungry) and she doesn't care lol. Wonderous!

So here I am. Ummmm just listening to some Paul Coleman Trio. woot woot. So today I got up and went to Soiree dance practice, that was interesting. Kinda repetative, but you'll have that. So I came home and decided to go running. So here I am in my capris and sweatshirt running down my road. On my way back my legs were bright red and they were numb. How stupid could I be?!? So I stop at Rachaels house, then I ran back home. Yea wasn't fun at all! Next time I'll remember to wear pants when its 30 frecking degrees outside! So after that went ot showcase dancer practice. That was so much fun! Ya gotta love the Elephant and the Kangaroo! So the ending pose definatly rocks! I'm so excited! Tonight it just felt as if everyone was really close friends. Like sometimes its cliqueish but tonight it wasn't and i felt so accepted and such! I was nice. Welp anywayz I'm out, adios.

Lesley

Hmmm today got my hair cut, went to the mall w/ my mother, got depressed about my weight and the way I look like again, went home, went to kristas and did random stuff. So today was good after the mall.

So tomorrow I have soiree practice 2-4 the showcase practice 6-8. Woo Hoo. Dancing should be fun! I'm so excited for showcase to start up! But then again I don't want it to be over b/c then spring break will come. I mean I'm super excited for spring break, but then I'm not for various reasons already mentioned. Errrr frustration.

Lesley

Today was an ok day. So school went decently, Soiree had a gig after school. It was kinda hectic b/c I had to take Nick home and Becky home to get their sweatshirts and it was funny b/c I was at Lewis and Sterns @ 3 and we were supposed to be there by then... lol yea it was intersting. Got there around 312 and performed at 315. After the gig a bunch of us went to Taco Bell. That was so much fun! Lindsey Drager I love you! She is the funniest person ever! Well after that I took Chels home and then my mother and I went to Value City to look for clothes and trash bags. So went there, tried on tons of stuff didn't find anything. Wow I truley hate being a cow! It would be so much easier if I was normal like everyone else. The normal height, normal weight. Its really discouraging goign to a store trying on tons of stuff and none of it fits. But oh well, things are gonna change. Anywayz after some of us went to Ashleys house and did stuff and then we went to Holly's house. It was so stressful b/c Im not allowed to drive a lot of ppl around but my mother seemed cool w/ it thankfully.

Well b4 I went to Ashley's house I told Krista that I would drive to Target to get a glow in the dark frisbee and well my dad and I got in a huge fight! He was talking about how he doesn't want me driving around all over that place, how he didn't buy the car to be going to all these places w/ etc.etc. Yea dad you bought the car so it could sit in the drive way...... He asked what I did this week and I told him baton, youth group, school, and westgate today. He was going on about how he didn't want me to go to Target b/c its busy blah blah, yea since I drove out to Westgate an hour ago which is tons worse! Errrrr. I called him an ass when he was wlaking out, and just started crying b/c he didn't understand at all! I would go on more but I'm sick of typing about this.

But anywayz tomorrow I get my hair cut, then shopping w/ mum. Sunday I have soiree practice 2-4, and also showcase dancer practice 6-8. Wooo Hooo. I love dancing so this shoudl be fun! anywayz I'm out!

Lesley

OHHHH! so tonight i had to take ashley home and this guy was on my tail and had his brights on and i had to turn left into her drive way which is on sterns. So its clear to go and I see that I passed the drive way(which is clearly understandable b/c her drive way is hard to see) sooo i make a sharp left.... WOOOOO there is a ditch there. So I stopped turned around and got into her drive way. I was so scared! I feel like a horrible driver. I feel as if I'm gonna kill everyone on the road etc.etc.! Wow maybe if ppl didn't have their brights on it would be easier.

Welp today was a decent day. Its St. Patricks day and I totally forgot to wear green.... so i wrote green on my hand in a green pen. Close Enough. I just hope it will wash off. So today I came home and I definatly took a 3 hour nap, and boy was it refreshing! I'm still tired so i'm sure I'll beable to get to sleep tonight. Tomorrow is festival. I'm excited, Kinda nervous b/c I dont' feel as if were prepared, especially in sightreading. I think our best piece out of our two required pieces is Kyrie Eleison. Set me as a Seal isn't that consistant so I don't know. The 1.5 hour drive should be exciting. So I'm getting nervous for spring break for various reasons. I'm so excited for performing and the parks and stuff I'm just scared for the beach and cruise and other swimsuit involved stuff. I love how all the girls in soiree are like perfectly shaped and then theres me... ERRR. Time to start cutting back, exersizing, anything necessary to lose weight!
On a good note I made National Honor Society! That was exciting. I can't wait to start getting involved. Our concert last night went perty decently. Beatles could have been better but conversation rocked! Build me up Buttercup was so much fun, I can't wait to do it again! Welp anywayz I'm out to sleep some more. Tschus.

Lesley

I'M A COW, HEAR ME MOOOO! "MOOOOOOOOOOOO!"

The Cow.

Well its 945 @ night and I have 2 more chapters to read of Huck Finn....umm yea definatly not going to read. Today was a perty normal day. It was a bummer though when I found out that our english report (meaning rachael and I) was gone. It was on a disk and I think I ruined the disk somehow so our english powerpoint is gone. So we had to start alll over today, woo hoo just what i wanted to do, type out everything all over again. But yea so i came home today and was kinda tired so I took a 2 hour nap, it was quite refreshing! I went to baton, blah blah blah, came home and at dinner. Now I'm here writing a blog, what an exciting day. I hope tomorrow is more exciting. I'm hoping we won't have school due to snow but ya never know w/ Bedford. We have our choir concert tomorrow so hopefully that won't be cancelled. We need a test run b4 festival! Welp I'm out.

Lesley

Wow things have been wonderful! So lets start w/ Friday. Friday Chels and I drove up to westgate for the soiree gig yea it was definatly cancelled. So its next weekend..... It was ok though me and Chels ended up going to Taco Bell. So then Krista and I went to the mall and Kohls b/c she had to take some stuff back. While at the mall I found a lanyard for my keys which rocks. Its hot pink and has white stars :-D. Then after that a bunch of us went to Target and I bought a Care Bear key chain, 2 bags of playdoh, and a package of crayons. Saturday soiree had to perform at the Bedford Trade Fair. That was fun, a lil cramped but it was fun. Then Chels and I went to Subway then my parents took us up to Blissfield trade fair which was fun. Ya gotta love the Religon teaching clown, hehe! He's my King of Hearts ;-)! Mr. Ripper showed up which was great, it was good to see him again! After that around 8 oclock Chels and I went to Janettes and Liz, Bobbo, and Laurie were already there. Then later Lizz was there. So today was wonderful. I had to sing w/ the jazz band at the Bedford Trade fair. Yea so I was super nervous, but I thought I did perty good. Everyone says I did wonderful so that was comforting. I was worried about the last song b/c it was high but my mom loved that one the best adn when singing it I just looked at everyone adn they had smiles on their faces :-D Wow it was great to be singing. After that Krista, Katlyn, Ashleigh, Holly, Josh, and I went to Jeds. That was a blast! Wow we got to do that again sometime! Dinner just made my day, it was definatly a wonderous weekend!.

Lesley

Well today has been once again a wonderous day. I woke up this morning expecting not to drive but there was no snow so i could! And as of my last blog my dad was taking my car to work but he meant the van, so i wasn't gonna beable to drive if it was snowy b/c my mom can't drive the truck in the snow, but there was no snow so it was all good! It felt so good driving to school and stuff. Today I got to practice w/ the jazz band again, I get so nervous going to practice. The song I'm singing w/ them I think is high but everyone says i sing it good so thats awesome. I just hope they won't "boo" me offstage or ne thing. That would suck. Were performing at the trade fair on sunday @ 145. Hope to see some of you guys there. I'm hopeing my baton coach will come, that would be awesome. Don't think she's ever heard me sing b4.... But yea so showcase meeting went well, kinda chaotic at first but it was all good. Anywayz I'm off to baton then youth group!

Lesley

It was soo funny I walked out to my car today and there was a label maker sticker on my window that said Lesley, hehe that was humorous. Its great having a lisence plate that say 1LESTER b/c everyone knows its you then. lol

I'm so pissed it isn't even funny. So today my dad took my car into work to fix something. I was pissed about that b/c it was my first day being allowed to drive. So I get home all pumped up for tomorrow and look forward to it I get home and my dad calls and talks to my mom. He has to bring the car back tomorrow so I can't drive it to school. ERRRRRRR! He never does ne thing he says!#!#!@!@. So now I prolly can't drive to school but I may be able to drive the van. Ohh Wow hold me back. So I get to do all my running around tomorrow w/ the van or nothing atall. So much for being on my own. Heck if I know he may not get it fixed by tomorrow and I won't beable to drive to westgate I wouldn't freckin doubt it. Knowing the way he is, of how he never keeps his promises ever.

Well today was a decent day! Today was my last day riding to school, from now on I'll be driving! Woo Hoo! Yea I'm excited. I had a chat w/ my mom last night and it seems things are getting straightened out better. I have to realize that I need to take the driving thing slow no matter how much it really sux!I just can't wait till 1 month goes by and things get back to normal and not so tense w/ driving. Today my mom and I are going up to westgate for a test run for Soiree's gig on Friday. I'm allowed to drive up there and take Chelsie so that will be fun! Today I practiced w/ the Jazz Band again, that was fun. Josh started doing "Gut, Gut, Super Gut" after I sang and all the german kids joined in, it was fun. Practice w/ jazz band went decently, I still need to memorize some of the song but I think I'll get it, and after the key change it gets rough but hopefully I'll just belt it out and get those high notes! Wish me luck everyone for the trade fair performance, I'm getting nervous! So for the trade fair, soiree is at 1145 and then blissfield performance at 215. Then on sunday jazz band performace at 145. Welp anywayz I'm out, cya laterz

Lesley

Well today has been a wonderous day! So the day started out decently started out stressful but got better. So for the whole day I was sick to my stomach b/c I had my drivers test and I also had to practice w/ the jazz band. I was super scared for practicing w/ the jazz band b/c the song was a lil high and plus i lost the music for the song..... but I found the music 3rd hour and i practiced it w/ him 5th hour and it went pretty good I think. Then yea after school took my drivers test and I PASSED! WOOO! Yea So I already have my lisence. I'm gonna get my permit tomorrow and I'll be driving to school by Thursday. So I asked my mom if I could go to Holly's, yes i was allowed to go but I had to call her as soon as I got there. Let me remind you I can ride my bike to Holly's. So I'm at Holly's and I didn't ermember if I had my permit forms for parking and I called my mom to ask and see if they were in my folder and I said if not I wanted to run to the school. "Oh no I don't think so, your not going to the school" I was gonna ask her first so I told her and she was like ohhh ok. So let me remind you holly lives on Dean and Lewis..... Then others come over and I ask my mom if I could drive to Subway... absolutly not blah blah blah. ERRRR! Subway right down the road. Ok so i call ehr telling that I'm gonna come home and I called her when I got home. I may be driving to westgate on friday adn I can't even drive to the schol?!?!?! Rar. Oh Well at least I have my lisence..... But yes so I'm home I have tons of homework so I'm out!

Lesley

Well today has been a wonderous day! So the day started out decently started out stressful but got better. So for the whole day I was sick to my stomach b/c I had my drivers test and I also had to practice w/ the jazz band. I was super scared for practicing w/ the jazz band b/c the song was a lil high and plus i lost the music for the song..... but I found the music 3rd hour and i practiced it w/ him 5th hour and it went pretty good I think. Then yea after school took my drivers test and I PASSED!

So yea everythign was great till baton ended. So I get in the car and we have pizza. I ask my dad if I can have a piece. NO! Not now. and gets all pissy. So then they get to talking and I ask my dad if I can drive to blissfield and he said absolutly not etc.etc. So conversation goes on between mom and dad. My dad brings up that he has to take my car in wednesday. The first whole day i have my lisence my dad takes my car away! How stupid is that!?!. Oh and then I ask if I can still drive up to westgate for the soiree gig. NO! my dad is like no do you think you can drive all over that place. blah blah blah. Ok so first it is a "oh yea probably" from my mom and now its a "i dont' know prolly not" from both of my parents. So then were driving down our road and he's flying over the pot wholes and I ask him how come he can go so fast when he tells me to go super slow. And he's like ohyou've been in a pissy mood. WTF? Ok i get into the car and ask if i can have pizza and you just blow up in my face.... "Well we don't eat in the car" and I was like yea dad since you eat a bean burrito while ur driving in the car, but I can't eat when I'm sitting in the back seat?? ERRRRR! FRUSTRATION! So yea I"m pissed.

Lesley

Well today was a wonderful day. I got up earlier so i had time b4 Rachael picked me up to sit down and watch t.v. and snack on some cereal. So I got to school today and got my parkign pass registration formish thing. Yea I'm soooo excited! What else happened.... nothing really exciting. I have to go down tomorrow during Am.Govt to practice w/ the jazz band. I got a new song and its a little high but hopefully it will work out. Yea and lets see, OH! Alyssa and I made it w/ our song for showcase and I also made it as a showcase dancer! Im so thrilled! Showcase is going to be so much fun! Well I just got finished burning fat, hopefully I'm actually burning some w/ this exersize thing. Well I got to go practice driving and then I'm off to baton, wooo hooo...cough.

Lesley

Welp I'm feeling perty dang good. Things seem to be looking up right now. I have absolutly no reason to be sad or ne thing like that. This week should be exciting. I will hopefully be getting my lisence on Tuesday and I'll be driving to school maybe by Thursday or Friday! And I'll be driving to Westgate for that soiree gig on Friday! My parents say that I can only drive w/ one other person for a whole month and then after that I can take more ppl. That kinda stinks, but I guess it is for the best. Showcase results should be posted up soon. Try outs went decenlty, but I'm not gonna get my hopes up.

So on Friday my brother wrote me an e-mail saying how he is worried about me b/c I've been depressed and how he wants to let me know that he's here for me and that he'll understand. And how he just wants to be a good brother. I read that e-mail and it brought tears to my eyes. It was so great knowing that someone cared for you that much. I knew that he did, it was just great to hear it come from him again. I'm so glad that I have a big bro to watch over me and to relate to me whenever i need him. Im not good to talking to people about things, I'm glad that he wrote me an e-mail b/c I'm sure he knew that it was easier for me to talk in an e-mail. I love my brother.

Well anywayz school is tomorrow and I'm excited. I hope my happy cheery mood stays for awhile!

lesley

Well today was an ok day. It started off kinda gloomy w/ the rain and such but it got a little better. Well 1st hour we talked about Spring Break!! Woo, and 2nd hour we sang of course. I found out I have a 97 in my honors algebra 2 class which rocks b/c I had a 86 last quarter.6th hour was Flexlab Tag in German. Fun Stuff. Yea so I stayed after for Showcase dancers tryouts and it was a lot of fun! I really love to dance. Im never sad when dancing I don't know how anyone can be. So that went wonderfully then I had to come back at 500 for me and alyssa's song. We sang "only in new york" from T.M.M. I think the tryouts went decently, not the best we've practiced it b4 but it was good considering that we've never sang it w/ a piano. So yes after that I went to Jed's and the Mall w/ Chelsie, Krista, and Bobbo. That was fun I guess. We had some good deep conversations, it was an ok night. I'm still really bummed out, I dont' know why I'm just not in a happy hyper mood like i usually am. But the good thing is that I found out was SHOCKER means. Yea thats dirty. Thanx Bobbo for explaining, lol. Yea so one thing I hate aobut myself is that I'm naive I guess you could say. I hate it when my friends won't tell me something that they did b/c of the way I am. B/c I'm naive or innocent. That frusterates me. I was also talking to Bobbo and Krista about guys and asked what they like, and bobbo said confidence and stuff and he said that shyness coudl be good sometimes. and i asked about naiveness and he said that that coudl be bad b/c guys could take advantage of you. I'm glad I'm not that naive to let a guy take advantage of me, that is something I am greatful for. Welp I definatly need to go to bed, I'll talk later I'm sure.

lesley

Today has been an ok day. I just seem as if I'm in a slump right now, I'm so confused about everything. Its as if right now my life has no meaning, I'm just going through the motions. I remember when I'd come to school all happy and hyper and I'd just have the best day ever. I haven't had one of those in a long long time. I miss them. Well tonight is youth group, I'm really excited for that. I get to sing! Wow I love singing at youth group. I'm excited for small groups also, that is when the group has really good conversations and we can just get everything out.

Well tomorrow is showcase tryouts. I'm trying out to be a showcase dancer and also doing a duet w/ alyssa. Were making "Only in New York" from Thoroughly Modern Millie a duet. I really hope we make it. We really need to practice though w/ piano and Mr.smith hasn't been there so we haven't had time to practice at all! Errr. Oh Well, hopefully he'll be there tomorrow. I have to turn in my NHS info tomorrow, we had a discussion in Varisty about how stupid NHS is b/c ppl who work really hard and are truthful don't make it but ppl who lie and aren't hardworkers make it. Yea so I have to get some signitures tonight at baton practice. Baton till 620 youth group till 930. If anyone knows of a good youth group for college students around here pleez tell me. My brother wants to get involved in one and he can't go to RLT or BCC b/c he works friday saturday and sunday :-(. Welp anywayz I'm out, thanx a bunch to everyone who leaves notes and tags, its means a lot to me.

~Lesley

Hmmm who would feel like crap right now? That would definatly be me. Well my brother asked me if I wanted to see "The Passion of the Christ" today. I really really want to see it, but I told my friends that I would go with them. And its just that right now things arent going to good, and I know this is gonna be a hard movie to watch, watching a movie where you see the person that died for you is gonna bring you to tears. Also if I saw it with my friends we would prolly go back to someones house and talk about it which would be great, just to hear their thoughts on it since they aren't deep Christians. My brother said that he kinda wanted to see it again but he just really wanted to spend time with me, and thats wonderful b/c I love spending time with him, but I wish it could be doing something else and not watching this movie. Plus he's seen it already, some of my friends haven't so we'd be in the same situation. I don't know, maybe I'm just being selfish. Speaking of the Passion though, I got into a debate in my German class about it. And someone was saying how it shouldn't be rated "R". And I disagreed b/c if you are of that religion its gonna be a hard movie to watch and such. And he was like well how do you know the stuff is true, that Christ was crucifed and such. I told him that it was in the Bible and its been proven and such, he's like well how do you know. And i told him it was all about Faith, weather its proven or not it all comes down to Faith. If you have Faith in something so much it becomes real to you. I felt so great after that conversation knowing that I coudl stick up for what I believe in and not care about what they thought, After that I told someone about it and they said they wouldn't beable to do that. I'm just so happy that I'm able to!

Anywayz today was a crappy day, don't know why, just really really crappy. My mom and I went driving after school to get ready for my test coming up on Tuesday and I did perty good. I tried parking twice, and did it perfect each time. We also went to Office Max and I got some nift school supplies! Woo! Don't ask me why getting school supplies is so exciting. Oh yea and I asked my mom if I could clean the car out and she was like "yea sure, its yours" it was wonderful hearing that and knowing I'll beable to drive soon! Oh yea and Youth Group tomorrow! I"m Singing! I'm sooooooooo excitied!!!!

Lesley

I really wish I was not so shy and softspoken. I wish I had the guts to go up to everyone and start a conversation with them. There are so many people out there that I am longing to just meet and get to know them. I'm scared to go up to them though b/c I'm afraid of what they are going to think of me. I'm scared of rejection which is really stupid. I wish I could just be confident w/ who I am and not care what people think. But its just that there are so many things that separate me from people. Like with a lot of my friends now they are all into guys and just talk about them 24/7. I am not like that. Sure I think a lot about guys but not that much. And with my values and things. I am a big Christian, I love just listening to Christian music. In the car it is either a CD or 89.3. I don't' like listening to everything else. Sure when my friends listen to it though, I go along w/ it but I don't make a habit of listening to it. I just feel as if I have no one to relate to, everyone seems to be totally different from me. I just wonder sometimes if I should just become like everyone else and maybe I'd fit in a little better and maybe people would like me more.

Lesley

Wow it feels so weird to be back home doing nothing. School was actually ok today, kinda weird knowing that Les Mis is over and I have free time now. Tonight I have to go back to baton! AHHHH! That is just gonna be awkward. I miss going to baton, but then i don't at the same time. I can't wait till marching band starts up its gonna be so exciting! I'm gonna be a senior in marching band! I'm not going to have anyone to look up to, that really stinks. I don't want to go to college, I don't want to grow up, I just want things to stay like they are. Its hard realizing that I have a whole year left. Like we still have a good part of this year left w/ spring break and showcase and such, I just hope that next year lasts forever. Soiree has been so much fun this year, it's gonna be hard next year with all the seniors gone. Well anywayz, I got to get ready for baton practice, adios.

Lesley