Errrr things are so frusterating. It sux so much when you want to fix somethign so bad and you try to but things never really get fixed. You know they will be eventually but at the moment they seem as if they will never be fixed. You try debating, talking, arguing, and then apologizing and it just doesnt' work. And You'd think that apologizing would work but it just doesn't b/c its as if it isn't good enough. But what can I do then. i can't do anythign thats the problem. all i can do is continute to argue, talk, debate, and apologize till everything works itself out. Why does it seem like eternity till that happens though.

Frustration and Confusion
Lesley

Wow I haven't written in ages! Its craziness. Well things have been hectic lately. I have had tons of homework and reports to do, and I also have Joseph call backs on Friday so I've been trying to work on that. Got in a huge fight w/ my mom on Sunday night, wasn't fun at all! Called Chelsie crying on the phone and all that good stuff but my mother and I are all good now, back to normal thankfully!


Lets see last weekend was UT Band day and that wasn't to bad. Really really really cold though! After UT some of us went to Seths house and hung out, that was fun. Oh yea and on Friday a bunch of us were gonna go to a haunted house but that iddn't work out so instead Alyssa, Josh and Seth decided to stay at my house adn we ripped the cable cord fromt he back of the Tv. Ha that was crazy. My dad was pissed but he got over it.

Well last night was our choir concert and that went perty well. Afterwards Chelsie, Dan, Krista, Holly, Seth, Matt, Alyssa, Bait, and I went and saw Team America World Police. That was an interesting movie! It was absolutly halarious but just a little much for me lol. Anywayz I must be going! Love ya all!

Lesley

Okay time for a real update...... Well the weekend was interesting. Friday was horrible lol. I got the oppurtunity to sing the National Anthem at teh HC football game and I totally blew it. Nothign like forgeting those dang words! I was really upset about the whole thing but what are ya gonna do. I got caught up in the whole 2 sec delay :-(. I guess it was the longest na anyone has ever heard! I won't watch teh tape of it, I'd rather not relive the embarssment........Homecoming was awesoeme! I enjoyed it very much so! We all went to La Fiest and had a blast there and then we went off to the dance. Dance was teh best so far b/c I actually danced! Craziness! We spent the night at Hollys and watched Godsend. Frekin scary movie! Thanx Hurst for gonig home to get my bunny! can'ts leep w/o it!......... Well this week I found out that Aaron and Kate are going back out. Thats awesome if that makes teh both of them happy. I will just be totally ticked if he hurts Kate again. He has hurt several ppl over the past liek 2 weeks and it frusterates me. One was my friend and people dont' hurt my friends. Aaron hasn't really talked to me and it thats the way he wants it so be it. Life goes on, I'm over him :-).......... Well tomorrow I have voice lessons and I can't find my voice book, and I also put my hair in curlers tonight so I'm hoping its gonna look decent......... Mother lately has been frusterating me a lot. A lot of talk about weight, boys, and stuff I rather not discuss! Anywayz. Life is getting better by the moment!

Lesley

Everyone needs to read this........

" I can't imagine being in love with somebody, letting him touch me and telling me things I wouldn't know whether to believer ...........................
It seemed likes he was playing a game with idiotic rules. First you laugh, then you tell a pretty lie, then you stick your tongue in each others mouths, then you say something really mean and hurtful to eachother, then you go off and find somebody else who wants to play the game. This is an activity for eintelligent people? I think not. " Hard Love by Ellen Wittlinger

sometimes i get my self wrapped up in relationships then i realize what the majority of them are all about.

i'll write a real entry later