Well last night was a bunches of fun. I was over at Alyssa's and were getting ready to go to a bonfire and it starts pouring, so instead her fam. comes over and we play hide and go seek and stuff like that. It was so much fun. So then afterwardz Alyssa, Josh, and I wanted to go see the day after tomorrow. So Josh gets me to ask his dad and we end up going woop woop. Yea that movie was hardcore scary. I was like in the corner of my chair watching it. I got home around 1230. 1/2 hour past curfew. whoops.

So today Krista, Ashley, Holly, and I went to IHOP and then we went to meijer and visited my bro and got film developed. After that we dropped holly off and went to Kristas where we got to go swimming! It was freeeeeezign cold but a lot of fun. My mom is coming home tomorrow so thats fun! Anywayz I'm off

Lesley

Wow haven't written in a while, I didn't really feel the need to. So its sunday and the concert went well on thursday. It was quite depressing though. I'd have to say the drama banquet was worse though. During the power point I cried hardcore. Its really hard to believe that were gonna be seniors next year and none of the seniors of this year will be here. Its just really hard to think about and accept. Well after the drama banquet some of us went over to Baits and then I went to Alyssas to spend teh night. That was a lot of fun. Alyssa, Josh and I watched Edward Scissor hands. That was surprisingly not scary. I fell asleep half way though. In the morning Alyssa and I finished watching Edward Scissor hands from where we fell asleep and then we watched Dirty Dancing! I love that movie now! It was my first time seeing it. So afterthat Alyssa,Megan,Katie and I went to the zoo. That was exciting. So now its Sunday and I tried doing my math project but I can't finish it b/c I dont' know how to make a histogram on the computer. :-/. Anywayz I'm gonna skidaddle.

Lesley

So yesterday was so much fun. Well during the day it was normal and such and I had to go practice w/ the jazz band 5b. So in 5th hour I was yawning and my stomach hurt really bad and i found out that is what happens when I get nervous, I yawn and my stomach hurts. But yes went to practice and that went perty well. The rest of the day was decent, German was weird w/o Lindsey,Ashley, Laura, and Kyleen. I was lonely so I moved over by Stefanie.But it made me happy b/c Seth talked to me and i thought he hated me so that really made me happy. So after school I came home and I had majorette tryouts and that went well. Larry is trying out for flag corp!!!!! Woop Woop, I so totally hope he makes it, that would be awesome!
So I come home and take a shower as fast as possible and I"m looking for something to wear for the concert. I'm trying on clothes and my mom was like that looks tight and I said yea b/c it is I prolly gained weight,a nd she's like you need to stop eating eveyrtime i see you ur eating etc.etc. I was like well lets not talk about it now just find me and outfit, so i get and outfit and I pick up a bananna and she's like didn't you already eat subway? I was like yea and she said well this is what i'm tlaking about, so I was like okay next time i'll be sure to grab a bag of mini muffins (let i remind you i ate half of my wrap, gave the rest to lizz,a nd didn't eat the chips)So were off to the concert. Concert went well. I sang ok i guess, could have done better, but Jazz band did SHINING STAR! That made me so happy. So after wards i get invited to go to TCBY.I told my mom that it was lil shack at first and she insisted I get a Wow cow.
So its Alyssa, Josh, and I and were on our way and of course I miss the enterance so I turninto magic wok and turned around. So TCBY was a blast its was Liz, Tori, Ryan, Sarah, Alyssa, Seth, Josh, Lyza, Megan, Matt, Elyse, Laura, and I. Yea it was so much fun. I had superman ice cream and my mouth was hardcore blue! It was so nasty! It was fun though when Alyssa and I randomly stuck our tounge out w/ icecream in our mouths at ppl. It doesnt sound funny but it was! Anywayz after that we talked for a bit and I took Alyssa,Josh, and Lyza home. I admit I was driving crazily. I'm sorry for driving stupidly Ill try to never do it again!!!!!!!
So today was decent Liz, Emily, Janette, and Josh signed my yearbook so that made me happy! I went and got my drama banquet outfit after school w/ my mom. My mom isn't gonna go to the drama banquet though b/c she's gonna be in florida. My dad is gonna go I just hope he doesnt' get lonely when I hang w/ my friends and stuff! Welp I'm out, I got a butt load of homework to do!

Les

So I was just talking about stuff w/ Chels and I get so frusterated sometimes b/c I feel as if no one likes me or as if I'm not good enough or cool enough. I just want like close relationships w/ people and I only have like a few. I have like Krista, Chels, Ash, Holly. Then I think about it and Dan B. and I have a perty good relationship. I think to myself why dont' I have really close relationships w/ ne one else etc.etc. Why can't I get someone in my life who cares/loves for me in a bf manner. Some may say to talk more and just don't be scared. But then I think why? Things are the way they are for a reason. I have the relationships I have for a reason. Life is meant to be this way. I shouldn't..... I can't change who I am or the way I act to get closer to people. When I get mad from now on b/c I don't get to go somewhere or someone doesn't say hi to me, thats meant to happen. That how life has to be. Better things must come later.

Wow so this weekend went ok, I got so frusterated saturday night and i was just so upset about things. So yes today went decently, it didn't feel as long as normal so that was a plus. I have a test tomorrow during 5th hour and i was supposed to go down for jazz band for the last half so hopefully i get my test finished quickly! I came home did all my homework which I was proud of myself for and then I went to baton. I went and really practiced!! I was so happy w/ myself. I practiced my solo and 2 and 3 baton. Now I'm home and I'm re painting my nails lol. Welp tomorrow night is a band concert and you guys shoudl come b/c Jazz band is playing and I'm singing.

Lesley.

P.s. I hate boys!

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Wow today was quite busy! The day started off decently had a oddles of ppl sign my yearbook.Chelsie wrote me a whole page and Alyssa wrote a page and a half! It made me smile. Well afterschool i went to voicelessons, then I went and got gas, gas was 212!!! That is ridiculous! After that went to majorette tryouts and I have to talk about that in a diff paragraph, then i went home and took a 2 sec shower and was off to YG w/ my hair wet! YG went perty well we had a talk about beign different inschool and in church and how you should act the same. I really think that the tlak is gonna help.

Well about majorette tryouts. We started making up a routine to turn the beat around and that went perty well. Jaymee and I perty much made it up. Jaymee started talking to me about me wanting to maybe be a feature twirler or head majorette. I really like the title of captain though. I guess Head twirler isn't as special as feature twirler so you would still have the captain title. Jaymee said that since there are 3 of us she is gonna want to feature me alot during routines. I don't know what I should do.... any advice?

Welp I'm out!

Lesley

Today was a perty decent day. Kinda boring but then again what day isn't boring? So anywayz I came home today and I slept lol. I haven't slept so much in my life! I came home the other day too and slept. But Ashley called me wanting to know if I wanted to go to a Broken Yoke concert and I said no b/c my mom wasn't keen ont he idea and I was tired and I have a test tomorrow over a book I haven't read all the way. So yea we got our yearbooks yesterday and that was exciting. I love it when people sign my yearbook I feel so happy when they write something. I gave my yrbook to Alyssa Henes for the night so she could sign it and Josh also. I hope they both sign it or else I will cry. Oh yea Dan Brim also called me wanting to know if I could tryout for Damn Yankees and I really wanted to but I couldn't b/c I had baton nationals those two weeks and it is mandatory! I was very upset. Anywayz can't wait till MB starts! I'm so excited. For Majorette tryouts were twirlin got Turn the Beat around and I am so excited for that I can't wait till we make up the routine! It really makes me smile. But anywayz tomrorow I have voice lessons and then majorette tryouts and then youth group. I'm excited.

Lesley

So today was a horrible day. The day just didn't seem to go right. In Varsity I watched myself make a fool out of my self when we watched the showcase video. I looked like such an idiot on stage and I looked like such a cow! If I would have known I looked like that I would have re thought some stuff. During 4b i got my yearbook. I like them I dont think their to bad. During 6th hour I felt so out of place. 6th hour is german and I feel like everyone hates me. The only ppl who I think actually like me are Ashley Sharp and Lindsey Drager. Seth hates me b/c he hasn't said a word to me since he found out about prom and I feel like such an ass b/c I did that to him. German would have to be my least favorite hour of the day. I can't wait till that class is over! O feel like such a loner at school anymore why do I feel as if everyone hates me. Er. I really need to shut up and stop complaining.

Majorette tryouts are afterschool, I'm not really excited for that but I'm excited b/c marching band is becoming closer. I don't know why I'm excited for marching band though b/c I'm always isolated b/c I'm not really a true bando I guess you could say. I'm not sure if thats why but sometimes it just feels like it. I don't know I'm just never happy lol.

~the cup is always half-ful
~things could always be worse

Wow so prom was so much fun!! I already want to like relive the night b/c it was so much. So at 530 we all went over to Josh Hortons house and took tons of pictures and eveyrone looked so beautiful and handsome! After we took pictures and talked to Don the limo driver we went over to head to suprise Becky w/ the Limo. On the way I played w/ tons of buttons! It was so cool! But yea we surprised Becky and that was fun, took some more pics and such and then we were on our way to Seagate! So yea @ segate was awesome. We danced a lot took pics I got my first slowdance ever and it was awesome! Adam and I danced every slowdance, woop woop! After prom we went to Janettes and watched the ring, I was into it at first but then I just fell asleep. So I ended up getting home around 3 and I slept in till 130

Today Krista, Chelsie,Holly,Ash and I went to Arbys to eat and then afterwardz Krista Chels and I went back to her house and hung out for a bit, took a walk, and then layed down.

So friday was hardcore soiree auditions. My audition went ok i guess. I think i should have done a diff song but o well. I really hope I get back in. I don't know what I'd do if i didn't, It'd be like a big part of my life was gone..... Welp Im out.

Lesley

Well today was a crapy day. I wonder sometimes how life could be so good at one point and then the next 2 days its back to shi*. I don't know. So at the end of first hour we watched the drama banquet presentations for the last 2 years and that kinda brought a tear to my eye. It made me realize that this years seniors are gonna be leaving soon and that I'm gonna miss them so much. 2nd hour we got to Pop up some D w/ DPop Magic. Eh. 3hrd hour got tests back 5th listened to Mr. Meyer talk about our civil rights and such and 6th hour was german. German is my least favorite class of the day. I get so sick of sitting there learning about Family Vartenschmeller go on a world wide trip! Its really boring. And then sometimes our class doesn't answer so I just answer b/c I don't want to just sit there and work on the same thing over again.... oh but then i answer and i get totally ignored! Fun Stuff. Well tonight don't really have anything to do, maybe I'll take a nap.

So "Joe". I wish I didn't have such strong feelings for him. I can't set my self up to get hurt. I just keep telling myself that I'm just gonna forget about him and see what happens but I can't! So my friend told him that I liked him like a couple days ago and I guess he was happy and said some stuff. My friend says that he likes me. So the past three days he was saying hi to me more and such but today he didn't talk to me. It is such an awesome feeling to just get to talk to him or get a smile from him. When I talked to him on the phone the other day it was extraordinary, my day was just made. I dont' knwo though I think he likes someone else. I can't get between that. And that is why I'm gonna just try to forget about him. ehhhhh. I'm so frusterated.

The one thing that I dont' like about blogs is that you can't just spill ur guts out about everything and say everything that happens b/c then everyone in the school would know by the end of the week. It gets so frusterating. I like blogs b/c when ur down you can get comments to cheer you up but then I don't like them at the same time b/c of the fact that everyone and their brother knows. Oh well

Lesley

So I'm listening to my Warren Barfield CD and this song comes up and it just amazes me so much on how he could write lyrics this strong that hit it right on the head. I want this in my life. I want somone who will mean this much to me. When I listen to this song I think of one particular person and its not who everyone prolly thinks it is. Its so werid b/c something happend this weekend/week and I ran over this song at the same time and I feel as if it relates to it perfectly. I don't know. I'm really glad when something like this happens but then I start getting all these strong feelings and I long for more when I know I prolly can't have it. Its good to know that someone feels the same way I do and can actually explain it.




There's ten hours between us tonight
And I feel like my heart will break
Cause it's been way too long
Since I've last seen your face
What I'd give if you were here with me now
And I was lost in your touch
If I know my heart
There's nothing I've ever wanted so much

But to love you
Just to love you
It's all I wanna do

There's ten hours between us tonight
And I feel like I could die
But all the pain would just
Go away if I could look in your eyes

And love you
Just love you
It's all I wanna do

Cause I know you're the one
That I've been praying for
I could love you for a thousand years
And wish for a thousand more

There's ten hours between us tonight
But tonight can only last so long
By twelve o'clock tomorrow baby
You'll be here in my arms

And I'll hold you close to my heart
And I pray you feel my love
Until that day when time or space
Will never again separate us

And I'll love you
Oh, I'll love you
It's all I'll ever do
Cause I know you're the one
It just feels so right
Would it be ok with you
If I loved you for the rest of my life

Warren Barfield:10 hours


I used to write my blog and check it all the time to see if I got notes. Just to see what everybody thought of me. I'm changing that though. Im writing from the heart and sure it will be nice to get notes but I am who I am and I can't change that.

Oh wow this is nift, blogger updated its style. I like it. So recently life has been perty dang good. For awhile life really sucked major butt and I'm sure it will again but for now I just got to take it as God gives me it.

Well for mothers day I got my mom a claypot and I sprayed it w/ chalkboard paint and I wrote stuff on it w/ colored chalk and such. I also got her some links for her bracelet and also some smelly stuff. Later on my mother and I went shopping and I bought a skirt! I have two above knee length skirts now, one I wore today to school. I felt like a slut! If i ever look liek a slut make sure you guys tell me. So today I came home and slept for a hour and then went to baton and such. That was interesting. It was so hot in the gym! Whenever we would turn our shoes would squeak. I can't tell you how many times I almost fell b/c the floor seems like it was wet!

Welp I have homework!

Lesley

Well the weekend so far has been good. On Friday I didn't go to school b/c I was tired and I didn't really feel like going so my mom let me stay home since I hadn't missed any school really. But on Friday I was going to go to Janettes for Mark's Surprise B-Day party but my mom wasn't keen on me going to a party when i had a competition in the morning which is totally pointless b/c I went to the mall and I ended up going to kristas! Er. But Kristas was fun. Alyssa was w/ us so that was cool. Well this morning I had a baton compettion and that went well and after that my mom, rachael and I went to Kohls and other various stores. I bought prom jewelery. After that I came home and went shopping somemore w/ Krista and I bout converse!!! Woop woop!Then later on Soiree had a gig and that went well. The people there were so nice. We definatly know it was gonna be 2 acts long! Yea it lasted on forever but Iit was a really good show, i enjoyed it. So now I'm over at Kristas adn were gonna get ready to go to bed soon! Welp anywayz I'm out!

Lesley

So I came home today and slept till 700. That was definatly very nice! Lately I've been just so tired in my classes and I can't learn ne thing when I'm tired. On Tuesday during Govt. my teacher asked me if I had a hangover b/c I wasn't really paying attention. Ha Ha me get drunk, yea that makes me smirk. But anywayz things have been okay lately. I still haven't gotten a letter back from Seth and its been a week since I've sent it. What else.... well tomorrow is youth group, senior night. Thats gonna be sad b/c so many great seniors are leaving :-(. I'm gonna miss all of them hardcore. But yea so the calender is..... May 8 baton competition and fasset middle school for soiree, May 14 I have soiree tryouts, May 15 is Prom, May 18 majorette tryouts start!!!! I'm so excited for marching band season!!!!! I can't wait to catch up w/ the Bandos! But anywayz, I'm out.

Lesley

Well today was an ok day. Really really tiring day! Welpduring 2nd hour we watched joesph again and i slept :-D. I have tons of homework i was supposed to do.... but I didn't do it. whoops. But anywayz afterschool I went to Target and such w/ Krista and then came back to her house and played serious volleyball, that was fun. After that I came home and got ready for the gig and I had to pick Chelsie, Dan, and Thomas up. The gig went well, a really small space, but you'll have that.

Well I just finished talking w/ my friend and I just want everyone to pray for this person. I just pray that the Lord will lift up his worries and just be with him when things are esprecially rough. Let him know that he has a meaning and he goes through everything for a reason. Lord just be with him.

Lesley

Well its 5:30 and I have baton @ 6. I think tonight were gonna get our pictures back so hopefully mine turned out good. Well today was an ok day. During 2nd hour were watching Joesph and it really sux, lol. I really wish we were watching CenterStage. If needed tonight when I come home I may just have to watch Center Stage by myself. During 5th hour we had a sub which was nice b/c we never have a sub in that class, I don't like Tienviery very much. He isn't a good teacher at all. Well 7th hour we watched a bit of Forest Gump b/c we had another sub in that class. When I came home from school I cleaned my room and it looks really nice except my desk area in my closet is still dirty. I may save that for tomorrow. Oh yea and I picked up my guitar today and started playing again. I miss playing a lot. Well I'm off to baton.

Lesley

Well today started out decent. I woke up and then Krista called me and we went to the mall, went and played volly ball in the rain, went to bk, and then went and got bobbo. After we got bobbo we went back to kristas and played some serious guitar, lol. So we called Chelsie to see if she was home from her cousins yet and she was at Janettes, so Krista, Bobbo, and I went to Janettes house. That was well..... intersting. I kinda felt really left out and as if i didn't belong.I don't know where I belong anymore. But I guess you'll have that. Left around 1120 took chels and krsita home.

Well once again I don't like who I am. Just think if I was more outgoing, more likeable, more just not me I would fit in so well. I would belong everywhere! Do you know how much that would rock? I'm sick of being lil ol naive Lester who won't play spin the bottle b/c she hasn't gotten her first kiss, Lester who is almost last out in playing 10 fingers. I wanna change! I wanna be accepted more. I want people to notice when I'm not somewhere.But.... Lifes a bitch and then ya die, so I just got to get over it.

Lesley